My Sin of Indifference

 A thousand shards of glass

All pressed through skin to soul

But I don’t feel even one

I don’t care

Let the pain consume me whole

 

I stare at candle flame,

Bright in an orange glow,

But theres no heat within me

I burn just by being near

A warmth I once used to know

 

Numb inside and out,

I realize there should be pain

When scars turn

from white to red

And from red to white again

 

But theres nothing there

No awareness of myself or me,

Be it dark

Or be it light

I have forgotten how to see

 

You cry for me

Tears long ago I ceased to shed

I only sigh to see you mourn

As I lie uncaring

Curled up on blood soaked bed

 

They call me dark and turn away,

They call me broken and sigh

I’m neither

My sin is worse

I just don’t care enough to cry

 

Cant weep for myself

For the loss of all that was me

Joy and smiles

And laughing eyes

All life and hope now a memory

 

Cant weep for you

As you despair seeing me encased in ice

Cant come alive

Reassure you

Feeling is not worth its price

 

So I will go to Hell and suffer

The devil alone will have to care

I certainly don’t

I certainly wont

Theres no guilt, no hurt, no fear

 

I’ll pay for it all I know

Pay for my sin of indifference

But till then

Till Judgement Day

I’ll revel in the lack of agony’s presence